This past July I began singing during the worship service at my church. Singing has been a lifelong passion of mine, so participating in this ministry has been the desire of my heart ever since I was saved. But I’ll be honest. It hasn’t been going as well as I hoped or expected. Singing alone, either a cappella or to the radio comes quite easily to me, singing harmony with a live band does not. I’ve been humbled to say the least.
Over the past several months, I’ve been battling feelings of insecurity and inadequacy, questioning whether I have what it takes. Why did I even ask God for this? I don’t have the skill. Can I even develop the ear for it? Maybe I should just be content singing with the rest of the congregation.
However, prayer and bible study has reminded me that my gifts and talents are not a result of my own effort but a blessing from the Spirit of God, intended to serve others not myself (1 Peter 4:10). And God would not have opened this door for me if I couldn’t be successful. I began to see how I have been so wrapped up in my own performance that I forgot the true intention of the ministry, which is to honor and celebrate my Father and lead others to do the same. Rocky Fleming, author of “True Worship” a devotional on Bible App states, “true worship begins in our heart” and I have clearly been stuck in my self-consuming mind.
Jesus teaches us that God “will give us all we need if we make the Kingdom of God our primary concern” (Luke 12:31). So my focus must only be to glorify God, not my singing abilities, and He will provide the rest.
Lord, you are worthy of praise and worship. You are creator, protector, friend and provider of every good and perfect gift. Please help me to be successful in this new ministry you have placed me in. Help me to avoid performance based faith and to recognize my true role as a model of what it means to worship you in spirit and in truth. Guide me through this process Lord, so I can remain in harmony both literally and figuratively.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.